I married and divorced in my early twenties and I had the type of marriage which caused me to vow I would never marry again. Everyone said those feelings would soon go away. They didn't. I entered into serious relationships over the years but marriage was not an option. This lead me to believe that I was broken beyond repair.
I used these past years since the divorce to heal and work on my relationship skills. After all, I am the one who chose him.....and chose the men after him. My choices gradually improved and I think that now I think i'm healthy enough to choose wisely.
About six months ago I began feeling a certain longing for a partner in life. A true partner and not just "Mr. Right Now". I want to ensure that I really do have what it takes to be a good partner and so I'm putting a lot of thought into what I need to do to bring a relationship back into my life. A healthy relationship. One that won't cause me to doubt my self worth, require drama, or embrace chaos and believe it is love.
I have no clue where this will lead, if anywhere, but I'm willing to take you along for the ride.
cerina
1 comments:
I really loved this post of yours, gave me a lot of insight on the one I love and what she is going through and about me and how I have been with her.
I don't know that I believe we can change, though I am sure we can change our perceptions which may have us behave differently. I know I see things in a different way and what used to get to me doesn't seem to anymore.
When I read what you write, I admire how smoothly it all flows in words. You are truly gifted, I regret there are so many miles between where we live our lives. I was thinking of taking a brief cruise or trip to Greece. I am ready for something classic.
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